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So, I've never been a mom. The closest I've ever come is helping my cats when they've had their litters. The first kitten I ever watched get born died today. She's been sick, but I thought she was responding to the treatment I was giving her.
I was never close to her, but since she got sick, she started to accept my touch in a way she never did before. Especially during the baths I was giving her every day. I think the warm water gave her comfort as well as the chatter. I spoke nonstop about what a sweet girl she was being (she was in water and not fighting me!)
And I wonder, now that she's gone, if things would have been different if I'd been a chatterer with her all these years. She was the cat who climbs into dark and secret places and gives a panicked look when discovered. Always standoffish, but she never used her claws the entire time I knew her. She was gentle and had a soft, barely discernible meow.
She had very bad habits (hence the name, Stinky). But she was one of my babies, you know? We buried her a foot away from her mom, who was quite easily the most wonderful cat I ever had. Now that Stinky is gone, I've lost my link to Patti-O.
I was never close to her, but since she got sick, she started to accept my touch in a way she never did before. Especially during the baths I was giving her every day. I think the warm water gave her comfort as well as the chatter. I spoke nonstop about what a sweet girl she was being (she was in water and not fighting me!)
And I wonder, now that she's gone, if things would have been different if I'd been a chatterer with her all these years. She was the cat who climbs into dark and secret places and gives a panicked look when discovered. Always standoffish, but she never used her claws the entire time I knew her. She was gentle and had a soft, barely discernible meow.
She had very bad habits (hence the name, Stinky). But she was one of my babies, you know? We buried her a foot away from her mom, who was quite easily the most wonderful cat I ever had. Now that Stinky is gone, I've lost my link to Patti-O.
