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There hasn't been an awful lot of positive at work these days. It's rather like a war zone; us against them. It gets tiring. It also tends to cloud a reality for me, which is that I love working in a bookstore.
A few weeks ago, on the night before I returned to work from a mini-vacation, I had a dream. I don't remember much of it, other than saying, quite emphatically, "but I love my job!" It was just the epiphany I needed. All the drama and bullshit amount being nothing more than a distraction keeping me away from the part I enjoy, helping customers and seeing the new books as they come in.
So, I've had an attitude change. Doesn't matter that no one else has. I can only control what affects me. I'm smiling more, I know I'm more fun to be around. It matters to not be the person always flying off the handle anymore.
And today was the first day the managers really actually noticed. And as a result, I'm getting a write up, of the good/positive variety. A note to put in my file for being positive and professional when a fellow employee asked me for advice. I hadn't realised how under attack some of them have felt.
But, lets face facts, they haven't behaved terribly professionally themselves, much of the time. There have been broken promises, things like cigar butts stuffed in mail boxes, ect. There's a reason for discontent. BUt honestly? I'm sick of living in that discontent. It's made me an unhappy person, miserable, miserable to be around. So, I suppose what I'd like is to just do what I can to create a bubble of positivity around myself. Can't hurt to try, yeah?
A few weeks ago, on the night before I returned to work from a mini-vacation, I had a dream. I don't remember much of it, other than saying, quite emphatically, "but I love my job!" It was just the epiphany I needed. All the drama and bullshit amount being nothing more than a distraction keeping me away from the part I enjoy, helping customers and seeing the new books as they come in.
So, I've had an attitude change. Doesn't matter that no one else has. I can only control what affects me. I'm smiling more, I know I'm more fun to be around. It matters to not be the person always flying off the handle anymore.
And today was the first day the managers really actually noticed. And as a result, I'm getting a write up, of the good/positive variety. A note to put in my file for being positive and professional when a fellow employee asked me for advice. I hadn't realised how under attack some of them have felt.
But, lets face facts, they haven't behaved terribly professionally themselves, much of the time. There have been broken promises, things like cigar butts stuffed in mail boxes, ect. There's a reason for discontent. BUt honestly? I'm sick of living in that discontent. It's made me an unhappy person, miserable, miserable to be around. So, I suppose what I'd like is to just do what I can to create a bubble of positivity around myself. Can't hurt to try, yeah?
