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Got to the house today and BC was sitting out on the railroad ties belonging to my other neighbor (the one who hasn't been looking after him.) Was such a relief to see him, even though I know Jackie has been looking after him. He was hungry, but he's always hungry now. He's very old and the weight doesn't stay on him any longer. But he's still a snuggler and loves to be petted. And at Jackie's there are other cats he can curl up with. I've loved all my animals, but BC is special. I sat with him outside until it was time to go. He made it easy on me by being the first to take off. In his case it was to go back and finish his breakfast.
I came back home feeling really wiped out. And that's how I spent the rest of my day off; yawning and groggy. I had to force myself to do housework and make dinner. Otherwise I would have sat around and zoned, which is a truly boring way to spend a day off.
I did make tortillas, though! I used whole spelt and unbleached white spelt flour and they came out really well. If a little ugly. I have a few left to make wrap sandwiches to take to work. And that's a relief. It's tiring to try and figure out easy and fast lunches I can take that don't use bread. I still haven't found a perfect spelt bread recipe. And nongluten breads are, ugh, truly vile. Thinking I might try mixing spelt and rye flour next. *ponders*
Mom has cancer again. One of her remaining lymph nodes has been affected and that scares me. She's already beaten cancer once this year, but that was in breast tissue. I keep wondering why they didn't do a double mastectomy, but who knows, maybe they would have left the lymph nodes behind? It's difficult to even type anything about this, here. My instinct is to hide from the problem, which solves nothing. But, ugh. The thought of losing her just destroys me. She sees her oncologist and her surgeon this week, which is when they will give her actual numbers, regarding the cancer. Crossing my fingers that it will all be promising and the tumor will be removed and I'll have her for at least a few more years. I'm not ready to lose her yet.
I came back home feeling really wiped out. And that's how I spent the rest of my day off; yawning and groggy. I had to force myself to do housework and make dinner. Otherwise I would have sat around and zoned, which is a truly boring way to spend a day off.
I did make tortillas, though! I used whole spelt and unbleached white spelt flour and they came out really well. If a little ugly. I have a few left to make wrap sandwiches to take to work. And that's a relief. It's tiring to try and figure out easy and fast lunches I can take that don't use bread. I still haven't found a perfect spelt bread recipe. And nongluten breads are, ugh, truly vile. Thinking I might try mixing spelt and rye flour next. *ponders*
Mom has cancer again. One of her remaining lymph nodes has been affected and that scares me. She's already beaten cancer once this year, but that was in breast tissue. I keep wondering why they didn't do a double mastectomy, but who knows, maybe they would have left the lymph nodes behind? It's difficult to even type anything about this, here. My instinct is to hide from the problem, which solves nothing. But, ugh. The thought of losing her just destroys me. She sees her oncologist and her surgeon this week, which is when they will give her actual numbers, regarding the cancer. Crossing my fingers that it will all be promising and the tumor will be removed and I'll have her for at least a few more years. I'm not ready to lose her yet.
